Becoming......

I AM GOING TO BE A GRANDMA.....Pause....and soon, WOW. I am so excited for my oldest daughter, I am so excited for me! I have had several friends ask, “So what will you have them call you?” My answer, “Whatever they want!” They respond, “But you don’t want them calling you Grandma, it sounds so old. Wouldn’t you want something like, Mimi, or GiGi or one of the other more “hip” names for Grandma?” No, not really, I love the title Grandma or Grandmere…I’ve earned it and…. I am old, so what! I don’t date myself by a name or a title. As long as that little guy knows who I am and is excited to see me they can call me anything they want!

As I get older I do seem to reflect back over my life and see how I have changed. I hope I have matured and become better as I have aged, as you can get older without getting any better or wiser. The only requirement for getting older is not dying. Becoming mature and wise requires taking life’s lessons and learning from them. Instead of looking back with regrets on what I would have done different if I knew then what I know now, I am grateful for all that I have done and seen and learned that has lead me down the path of life and has been a part of me becoming who I am now.

I am me…a wife, a mother, a sister, a friend, a daughter… and soon to be Grandmother.I love the gospel. It is at the very essence of who I am. I love life, even its struggles. I am stubborn and I don’t take constructive (or any) criticism well, even from my Heavenly Father (which has led so some of life’s harder lessons) but I am really working on that.

I love to listen to good music. I love the beach. I can sit and watch the ocean for hours, lost in my thoughts with the sand between my toes the salt spray clearing my mind and my sinuses. I love to listen to the rain. I am one of those few people that really love the wind. I can get lost in a beautiful sunrise or sunset or staring at a starry night. I am in constant awe at God’s beautiful creation called Earth.

I’m not as adventurous as I once was. I like being consistence (aka boring). As I get older I often catch myself saying, “Boring is underrated.” I love saying my life is “blissfully boring” I am creative though at times I don’t always feel that way. I have learned that taking one day at a time is better than worrying about what might (or might not) come tomorrow. I don’t waste my energy worrying about what might be and I have learned to trust in God.

I have taken a line from Robert Frost to heart, “In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life….. It goes on.”

I have learned that sometime you have to let go of things that seem important for something that is truly of worth. Some things in life are important and some are things are urgent and I am doing my best to learn the difference.

As I now get ready to start this next part of my life may I continue to learn from and enjoy life. I can’t wait to see what I will get to learn from this Grandchild of mine.